You and me, as normal as breathing.

Honey,
today my friend asked me whether is it a necessity for people nowadays to be in a relationship. If it is something that's a must. She asked me because I'm the only one currently in a relationship in our small little group.

I was quite taken aback when she asked me but nonetheless, I answered her. I told her, the feeling I have for you is not the kind where I would feel butterflies in my stomach. I can't even describe the feeling I have.

All I can say is, my feeling for you is somewhat as if it is normal. Normal to have you. As normal as breathing. It's not the lovey dovey yet permanently there. As if, without you, I wouldn't be me.

The Call.

He called me just now. I was half asleep. I woke up with a jolt because I set a special ringtone for him. It's been quite some time since the last time I heard the tone.

I asked him, why did he called. He told me that he missed me and he dreamt of me. *teruja.

I miss you too, love. A lot.

Endless Love.

I am in the mood of menjiwang. Keji, I know. However, I blame you for putting me in this mode. It is you whom I miss so much right now.

I wish that you would always be my endless love.

I love you, love. Wherever you are.

*need to dash because my ex-roommate is coming.

btw, have I told you that I love you?hehe. I love you, love.

You're the air that I breathe.

There's so much to tell yet both of us are too busy with our lives. Especially you. I really feel like calling you the other night but I didn't because I don't want to kacau your sleep.

It's not a question of wanting something, it's more like needing something. I no longer want you but I extremely need you.

In the corner of my mind, I'm attached to you.

FINALLY.

We are no longer in the uncomfortable silent mode. I texted him last night. He didn't reply. I was fed up. I called him this morning. He didn't answer. I was tempted to text him and give him a piece of my shallow selfish piece of mind. Thank god I didn't do it. He texted me later asking me what's wrong.

I told him. I told him how tired I was these few days and everything. Mainly, I complained to him a lot of things. He consoled me. He told me that it's normal for things to be like it is. I knew he knows better. I believed him.

All I need is for him to listen. It's enough.

Cepat-cepatlah mengkalah. Haishhhh!

I found a blog of my coursemate. He poured all his feelings (part of it, anyway) in his blog. He wrote how that girl played with his feelings. I was like, merasa keji terhadap beliau. I know, I do the same thing here. But it's different. haha! Bila time diri sendiri adalah sangat pandai memberi alasan.

Okay, the reason I built this blog is because I don't know with whom should I share the entah-perasaan-apa-yang-kurasakan-ini. I don't want to burden you so much (I know I am always burdening you but hey, at least I am trying lessen your burden a bit).

Plus, I want this blog to be read by you one day. Maybe if our jodoh adalah panjang (InsyaAllah), at least you know how I felt once upon a time. Or maybe if our jodoh tidaklah panjang (Taknakkkkkkk!), you would know that I loved you before.

Tetiba rasa sangatlah rindu dekat mamat perangai serupa beruk itu. Haishhh! Baby, please la don't be too egoist and just bloody send me a text or something! Sebab I don't want to mengkalah and you know how I am kann. Alaaa, sooner or later pun I'm going to apologise. So, it's just a matter of time. You should start, seriously.

I read your text messages yang dahulukala and I feel loved. hihi! When I say dahulukala, I mean masa kita hanyalah berkawan-kawan dan sukkkkaaaaaaaaaa bergaduh-gaduh dan berperangai pelik-pelik dan sukkkaaaaaaaaaaa mengkata orang secara berjemaah dan mengkata diri sendirik dan merajuk-rajuk. hihi! Alaaaaaaaa, you know the drills kan. hihi!

I love you, love. Wherever you are.

I'm Missing You.

Too much, in fact. Are you missing me too, Baby?

I hope you do.

It's been more than two days and both of us are too egoist to apologise first.