Fate

I thought that everything would be alright starting from last night. I was stupid enough to believe you. Now, thinking all you said to me last night, I can hear how hollow, empty your words were. Why did I even bother thinking that you might be different from any other guys I've known?

I'm hurt. You hurt me a lot. You keep on hurting me without realising it. Yes, I know I'm a bit cranky but give me reason why I shouldn't act like that? I came to see you all the way from Shah Alam for God's sake! You did nothing for me. Nothing at all.

Try put yourself in my shoes sometimes. I've tried everything I could to keep this relationship alive. I sacrificed a lot of things. No, I'm not mengungkit or whatsoever but it hurts me when you never care.

This is not the first time. You did the same things before and I let you off just like that. But now, I'm too hurt. Maybe I was right last night. We're just not meant to be together.

You and me, we're too different. You never try to understand my feelings and yet you expect me to understand all your actions even if they're hurting me.

I want someone who are not ashame to show the world that I'm his girlfriend.
I want someone who would listen to me and what my heart says.
I want someone who knows how to appreciate me.
I want someone who loves me.

I love you, too much in fact.
I don't think you ever love me. Not even a quarter of my love.

Please, if we really can't be together, please make me strong enough to live without you. Please let me be strong enough to be happy. Please let me be strong enough to forget you.